well, here I finally am. I at last find myself alone, rested, ready to type away. i’ve wanted to forever, but it has been so long since I have felt mentally prepared to write on here. and now i’m so shocked that i’m here I don’t know what to say.

marriage is an amazing thing. the closeness that it creates between two people has been very sublime to experience. to be the person that a boy confides in is one of the best privileges. to get to know someone in such an intimate way, it’s just incredible. and there’s still so much left to know.

I do feel different. some events in your life just straight up change you, and it takes some time to realize that is okay, that the person you were when you were 21 years old was never meant to be the finished product. life refines you, polishes you over time…being a grown up is okay.

there’s been a lot going on. sometimes it’s hard to make time to sit down and write, or go on a run, or just be alone. I think it’s just a season. between working and waiting and sleeping and cleaning and watching Alone and visiting family and traveling, I haven’t taken much time to clear my head and do what feels right. to get to a place where I feel good about where i’m at, who I am, what i’m doing, etc.

things I love + miss / yens:

• running + pilates
• painting, drawing
• making books
• crocheting
• bibles studies with friends
• coffee dates
• talking to kids
• learning to cook
• designing for fun
• reading ( I literally love to read)
• going to the beach
• spending time w friends
• meditation

the internet has been bad for me lately. i’m deep in the youtube algorithm of angry political commentaries. well, some of them aren’t angry but they focus a lot on everything that’s wrong with people. it’s not good for me. people are people. I need to spend more time out here (*points to the grass*) and only check my email once a day. why do I check my email so much.

❤